" it's sad when people you know, became people you knew"
Found the quote somewhere off the net along with the picture with the other quote. I've always been a sucker for relationship quotes. Mostly because of my love for words =)
I had never been one to warm up to someone easily. There would always be that awkward and painfully shy phase i would go through before i could finally muster up the courage to talk to someone i barely knew. But once I get over that, I'd be the talkative chatterbox you wish you never knew..haha. Come to think of it, this particular part of my personality isn't unique to me. Most girls raised in the 'adat ketimuran' environment would be feeling the same thing. But that's just my two-cent. Am no expert when it comes to personality. So will make no attempt to judge.
Once you get to know someone it would take a while to get into that comfortable phase where even silence has it's own story to tell. The kind of silence where you could just pick up where you left off as you had never been silent in the first place. It's nice to lower your expectation of constant communication like that. When you quit expecting to much, it liberates you from the disappointment of things falling short of expectations. But of course, i am only referring to this particular issue. Mind you.
It's nice really to be with someone safe, someone who would always be there even when other parts of your life seems to try their darnedest to annoy the hell out of you. Really, it is. Like the shining beacon in the middle of a storm. Like the northern star lighting up what would be and empty pitch black night. They give you hope, they give you reason, they give you the net you could fall on when jumping off that cliff was the worst decision you made. It's nice and i am grateful to have had the few people who could be just that in my life. Simple as that.
But what happens, when all that hard work (read : nurturing the relationship) seems to deteriorate, chipped away by the pressure of distance and time. And you looked back to that safe haven and found no one there? or worst yet, going to that familiar someone, and finding that the essence of the person you appreciate so much isn't there? Lost and confused you would keep holding on to what little you have. What happens then?
Do you go and find another? But it's never that easy for the kind of clean break you see on the outside. On the inside there would be a dam waiting to burst. And you had been avoiding that in the first place. So, what do you do actually when someone you know, became someone you knew? =)
I had never been one to warm up to someone easily. There would always be that awkward and painfully shy phase i would go through before i could finally muster up the courage to talk to someone i barely knew. But once I get over that, I'd be the talkative chatterbox you wish you never knew..haha. Come to think of it, this particular part of my personality isn't unique to me. Most girls raised in the 'adat ketimuran' environment would be feeling the same thing. But that's just my two-cent. Am no expert when it comes to personality. So will make no attempt to judge.
Once you get to know someone it would take a while to get into that comfortable phase where even silence has it's own story to tell. The kind of silence where you could just pick up where you left off as you had never been silent in the first place. It's nice to lower your expectation of constant communication like that. When you quit expecting to much, it liberates you from the disappointment of things falling short of expectations. But of course, i am only referring to this particular issue. Mind you.
It's nice really to be with someone safe, someone who would always be there even when other parts of your life seems to try their darnedest to annoy the hell out of you. Really, it is. Like the shining beacon in the middle of a storm. Like the northern star lighting up what would be and empty pitch black night. They give you hope, they give you reason, they give you the net you could fall on when jumping off that cliff was the worst decision you made. It's nice and i am grateful to have had the few people who could be just that in my life. Simple as that.
But what happens, when all that hard work (read : nurturing the relationship) seems to deteriorate, chipped away by the pressure of distance and time. And you looked back to that safe haven and found no one there? or worst yet, going to that familiar someone, and finding that the essence of the person you appreciate so much isn't there? Lost and confused you would keep holding on to what little you have. What happens then?
Do you go and find another? But it's never that easy for the kind of clean break you see on the outside. On the inside there would be a dam waiting to burst. And you had been avoiding that in the first place. So, what do you do actually when someone you know, became someone you knew? =)
